I'm tired of this, of overcomplicating things, when it should be so simple. I'm tired of assuming the words of man for the words of God. I know the theories, I know the justifications, for many a time they seem to be just that: petty justifications. But I also know we are called to be obedient.

I'm sick of fighting this one-sided and pointless battle. I'm sick of being converted into this army with an imaginary cause. Where once there was one, now there are two or even three. And the point, to me, has been lost a long time ago.

If our predecessors accepted the changes that were presented in their time, why can't we? Where once the ancient Church was alive with Gifts of Prophecy and Tongues (see Romans), now it is a place of quiet conflict. And the exaggerated problem could so easily be solved.

We just have to shut the hell up and be obedient.

I understand there are boundaries. I have my boundaries too. But this is getting ridiculous. We are here to sing. With our voices, hearts, minds and souls. So why aren't we doing more of that? Because I've stopped singing with my heart, let alone my soul. I've forgotten why I love the music, because now I'm lost in YOUR stupid crusade.

A crusade fueled by pride, like the proud artist who refuses to accept criticism, the proud designer who hoards his ideas, the proud fighter who justifies his violent ways.

And why would you bother with any of this, when we have forgotten the most powerful and important thing of all?

Where is your Love?

I'm really, really tired...